Right From Here

It whips around the soul like a vice-grip. Locked. Unmoving obsession and compassion. Unsure why or when or how, but the questions are irrelevant. Just the tasks at hand remain to be completed and understood. This is simple process. This is repetition. The best kind. The therapeutic kind.

Yet you fight the attention. The obligation. The natural desires. You refuse to understand the needs and the want of others. Just do with it what you want. Just take it from there. These are simple requests and matters turned complicated for the want of no fuss. Turn off the lights again. Shut it out. Close the lid and fix it with glue and cement. Nothing will ever get in again. Bubble wrap the life of it. No more air. No more breathing. No more living at all for fear of no life remaining.

Locking it all away again. The wrong thing to waste it seems. The eyes strain at the shapes like never before. A discordance within the alignment. Nothing is straight edge any more. And don’t forget your stuff any more. Don’t forget what you need and what you have to do. Don’t forget to enjoy it all.

It is harder to pick up the pen and run it across the ripples on the brain. It is harder to lift the feet and push it through the skin again. Always harder when it is most needed. But the product is undeniable. The quality is forever.

How many more?

This is another late request. This is the second in quick succession. And silhouettes around the companion frame. A frame of light blowing past your edges. The brain recedes. The brain explodes in light. Excruciation.

What are titles amongst friends? The sounds of the past. The hours at play. The soundtrack to a childhood. We all hear the slips and the mistakes. We never forget the soundtracks and the feelings that they convey and embody. they are the most powerful of them all. Before we had the moving images to replace their story telling every tune was a place and an emotion. Every ripple of sound was full of place, time, emotion, feeling, narrative. the most expressive of sounds is the one that emotes an event. The one that tells a story without words. The one that lets a specific configuration of vibrations ring out true and full… the personal, the political, the local, the national.

Worts and all. These nights used to be the special ones. Now we just recover from the week’s damage. Rename the week’s end… Repair and recovery.

The detune is the essence of it all. And we look down hallways known for life and wait for the constructed awkward to pass. This is not how it was meant to be but always known to be the case. Look into that mirror, knock the head back and gaze at the roof. Let’s go now. How many more times this will come and go and come and go. The rhythm of numbers and letters ring true with the rhythm of past vibrations. I can feel the feelings I had then. The rhythm with which the faders and the buttons coincided with the sounds pre-made and lined up. The plans and designs come best sometimes from the end of a finger. No preconceptions, no corrections. Just pure ideas and feeling. The emotions of that time and space. That place you were in when you made it. When you thought like that. When you were that person. Looking at the week like just another. Not looking at a deadline or long term goal. Just looking at the wall in front. The same mirror. The same roof. Thinking let’s stay here and get it right. Let’s never leave. Let’s get up to this and only this and focus and keep it that way for good.

This is how it should always be. This is how I am happy with it. This is how I want it to stay.

But it never will. feeling the flow and the rhythm will never stop but the time and place will grow and develop with the soul/. The body gets older. The body gets heavier. The bones slow down. The mind gets slower. The time and place, will, change. That is inevitable.

And breath. And do it all again.

Too far past it

And when you decide there is only the 10% left the race gets thinner and faster and longer and harder.

Then you decide to fix it after the race is lost. Then you bring the water and tea. Then you bring the skies and the rain. Then the heat flows cold across your face and waters the eyes. Every morning that should happen. At every instance it should be possible.

And now there is not enough time. And now there is no other way than to direct through pieces of paper with protocols and the letter of law. We follow in its directive. One to fit all except for that. Exceptions.

Then we decide how much is enough and where too much gets involved. I will just pick this but you want that… and we hit new times. Hit new highs. Hit deeper and stronger.

It must all be possible. It must all be possible.

And yet the creativity they flaunt comes slow and hard. Like a thick tar on the brain it drips ever so slowly to the fingers. Complaining of time and cramped conditions. None of this. Just create. They say create. They do. They find out. Just play. Like now.

The big letters. The written script. The honed materials and broken shards of glass and metal. Rusted emotions. The expressions of a rational thinker. The rational thoughts of an expressive artist. Yet one and the other compared and contrasted. And the last ones lost to a comfortable lunch and a sit down. A break.

And we are all late. Every one of us. The team. And we will fix it. Because nothing is the end of the world ever. Nothing.

Tracking Home

That liitle bit further in. Forget time. It evades you. Lost between six strings. Plucking through it. Bound in rhythm and sway and shuffle. This explodes. It rocks against one and another. The desk. The shake. The good the best. The fitting together. Just dont fight it. A good lead. Deep inside the black again. Deep inside the box. Everything is right where it shiuld be. 

An Oblivion Future

Remembering a time when. And Play. That collection of sounds played on the soul and pushed out a reaction. Remembering a time when the soul fell into its hold. One hundred percent with it. No other options just take it and do what you want. Now is the time to react again. Soul in one with it. The normal the full the happy the lush the bass. This is it.

The foiled emotions by the impressions of another. Another idea on importance. Another perspective on reality. This causes an issue. And everything seems less important then.

In the core the heart pumps the blood into every important place. It keeps the place clean. It keeps the walls happy. You are waking up in 6 hours. But you feel the pump. You feal the beating, relentless, holding forwever in a grip of life. A happiness pulse. Something totally involuntary and present. Impersonal. Silence. It is the sound of silenece. The blood in the veins. We have replaced the world of noises with these beats and sileneces. The hum is persistent until the world sleeps and the black surrounds. Single light sources take precedent and put a ring around the eyes.

There was a time when they looked without aids. They still do. And now with the pulse of a new collection the eyes have hope and dreams. These ones push out new waves of light and being. The mind is changed. The life is pushed. The arms are open. And we grow and develop constantly. We see the world in flames and look for ways to quench the thirst for water. For ways to improve despite the problems we face. This is our mission.

The room is no longer the same. Not full of the people and pulses of hearts and mind in a light separated in time and space by darkness. This is not the same place. This is a personal place where the world has been removed. An older space where the personal is importance. This is probably the wrong world. The one not wanted. The one that deserves to be liberated. The light is only ever allowed now. Opened up. I want to hold you, laughing. That is what I want. To hold that moment in time between the darkness where the feet are suspended in action. Where the people are encompassed by the goodness of the pulse, of the air, of the experience. The pure happiness. The experience. Sharing it in one place. A non personal space. A collective space. In light between darkness. I want to hold you, laughing. Repeating like the heart, like the soul, like the things we demand must continue and push and create. It is the time between their silence that we are afforded to make a break. We are afforded this time to leave a mark. How long that lasts is up to the power of the beat and the soul. And I look at the happiness on their faces and I see the mark of another and a collective willingness to be marked. Over and over in a blissful suspension between the darkness… in the light. Watching the smoke in pure suspension. Watching the feet above the floor. The hands in the black. The faces in emotion. The teeth exposed. The finger rigid in the light. The clothes outplaced. The beat dropping. The beat expected to drop. Anticipation. Pure happiness. What we all came for. Their pure happiness. Their pure expression. Their hands outstretched in the smoke and the darkness, in the light and the darkness, in the smoke and beams of pink. Leaving a mark on us all.. leaving it and thanking us for allowing it. Then gone. Again and back and we let the mark sink in and fade like a scar on the skin. Happy to remember.

Birds, I think

You rise to that stage and the last month dips slow with the bass. You watch the stage evaporate in the fog of the atmosphere. Further and further into the haze yet you know it will be back again. Sometime. Right now you look at the current trajectory. Everything is a balancing act. Everything is a strategic manoeuvre towards an end goal. Define the goal.

And you twist the metal on another neck. Another colour. Another beautiful thing. You all agree it is just that. And yet. You need to sketch on it. Sink sound into it. Make it hum. Make it blast. Take it as it is and record every moment. Small set pieces. Small expressions.

You owe that much to yourself. You owe that much to the thing, to its function. Let it express your ideas.

The birds. Cracking nuts against the wall. New growth. Young. Sitting on the edges of chimneys. Conversations overheard. A heat source, where better?

And we exclaim despite the rules! Despite the how’s and what’s!

And in the morning you learn to test. Test the waters. Push on further.

You get it right in bits. This is the right thing. Good.

Thought it was tomorrow

“What do you think of it then? Huh? You like it?”….”I’d swear I thought it was tomorrow, OK… hold on”… “Those were the days, in the Suburbs”… “I really know how to cook it. Just right.”… “We’re nearly there, put your feet down.”… “Up against that tree.”… “I think we can get this done by Wednesday. ‘Thinks it’s exciting. Pick the right one.”

Sitting on a bench in a park in a suburb. It is late, probably 2AM, enough that there are still a few wandering heads to disrupt the silence. Should the park even be open. It wouldn’t be. It would be closed, or at least hard to get into. They did this up. The lights on the horizon would come together into a yellow haze. No stars. Never any stars.

There would be a good jam. A silent moment. This person is escaping responsibly. This person is looking out over the water. This person is escaping. This person is not usually in this situation. This person has broken off from the group, a new group, who have disrupted expectations. This person is only newly able for this. Of age. Old enough. This person is not dressed for the occasion.

This person decides no clothes are needed where they are going. This person joins the group. Submerged. This person is now wet and cold. This person is happy despite their new situation. This person takes a moment. Between laps of salty cold. This person notices how the moon is hanging lower and larger than usual. This person only hears the lapping water and a jingle in the distance. This person presumes it is the buoys in the wind. This person sees the moon. This person hears the panic. This person is running half dressed into the shadows. This person is laughing as silently as possible between deep breaths.

This person escapes with another to a safer spot.

These people are isolated and alone. These people are happy to be. These people seize the moment. These people are at full speed. This moment is frozen like their toes. This moment is breathless. This moment is a heartbeat hard against ribs. This moment is caught in a throat. This moment stops all other moments. This moment is too slow for sound. This moment is too dense for light. This moment will break two souls in time. This moment will live past that.

And breathe. And smile. And gather your stuff. And walk to the next open room. And eat the next hot thing. And fall asleep on the next soft surface. And have nothing to wake for. And close new light out. And smile. And Wake.

Where next?