So you wont know.......'till you take your head out and sort the mess.
I have been floating around the target for days now... application to the important things perhaps and thats fantastic, but there are still obligations. Some things are seamless.. you don't know where one thing starts and the other ends. But now i know that there must be structure to most things in order for them to work the way you want. Perhaps a compromise will make the goal easier to reach... I may want one thing... but i wont have that opportunity until i try another thing.. and now it seems like a mess. Perhaps because it is all slower, perhaps because it is all up in the air and i don't know what i am doing exactly. I have all the tools sitting there and looking at me.. but i fail to apply what is needed... as if my body has given up.
Put the pieces together and sort it out, its that simple.
So lets sort it out - right here and now... what is there to consider..
The Life - and all Six parts of it...
The Book - and the hours that must be committed
The Occupation - And the Deadlines
The Airwaves - That open my eyes
The Words - To which this will go a long way
The Noises - that are everywhere and i am missing at every opportunity
The New Music - that has a new face, one that i have yet to say hello to
The Images - That forever will be lost
The Old Music - That feeds the veins
And i wonder if it is at all possible... we will knock off one in three short weeks.. the others as time passes.. but there is nothing stopping the on going practice... the ongoing ideals and ideas.
Dont listen to them, this time its just you - it's just you, and you have to do it.... you have to sort out the mess - This is where you like to be.
In the black - between lightbulbs that shine on nothing within your walls.. blank canvas - double guarded.. not obliged to be or do anything - let loose and free to be free. They say it is inferior - they say they are superior... what they dont understand is the liberation of it all - no longer involved in it.. it doesn't matter who you know and what you said and did with who and where.. its not about this or that event any more... its not about the involvement, it's not about that time we will meet...
... it's just a number between 1 and 100. Its just another percentage, just another average, just another one.
It's not the difference you will point out.
And why did it start here? Why in this way, so subtle.. i returned to this, left it for so long and wondered why it had not reared it's head before.. and i am thankful for what i have.. and the 13 that i never even noticed coming and going. The other 12 had seemed so substantial... but now its just another number... and i rejoice in reaching the point when it is just another number before 24....36....48.... and whenever else...
There is nothing better.. and smiles will shine from the black, as i dip my head in different waves, some older and some more contemporary. This is not just about the best new vibrations any more... must take time to sort it out and lift the roof up higher.
Expansion... development... enhance and perfect. .. perfect... and be proud.